if i were getting gifts for my bday, i would like,
rainbow slippers
ugg slippers
video ipod, white
clothes and shoes from zara, esprit, H&M, and express
a basket for my bike
<3 a valentine <3
but its just wishful thinking
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Monday, January 30, 2006
pictures from pomona
first jello shot. no worries, it was 2 shots tequilla for 21 shots..
mark and i at the party. look im not red!
me and emily. she's such a sweetheart, i wish she went here!
its been awhile...
cheesy song but really fits right now. its been so long since ive been happy. felt healthy. felt in control of my life and the direction its going. felt loved, wanted, and safe. and im glad to say that this semester has finally brought a change. last summer/semester was just a really awful time for me. and i just wanted to say that since starting this semester, i have been truly happy. i dont even know why. but its amazing, and i cant believe its been this long. went to pomona to visit mark last weekend. had a really great time. i remember freshman year i visited mark, and he took me to a party, and i didnt know anyone, and i didnt drink, and i hated the whole atmosphere. i was uncomfortable and it showed. i wonder what has changed. can 2.5 years really do that much? i dont know whether its the fact that i drink now and it makes it easier to talk to complete strangers, or if im just more confident in myself and interact easier with people. probably a bit of both, but i dont think i need that cup in my hand to have great conversations. i have changed so much, but honestly, most of this change occured the last semester. i guess i dont change gradually over time at a constant speed, i go through spurts and bursts of really dynamic change that almost makes me a new person. and actually a lot of those periods in my past have occured during or after a really shitty time emotionally/mentally. in hs jr year, where i was seriously depressed and lost most of my friends. summer after sr year/fall college, where i broke up with my bf and went off to a city where i didnt know anyone-and i was shy, so that was hard- and then this last 6 months, where i didnt know what the hell was going on. maybe the hard times are just something that i need to go through in order to keep growing and evolving. i just might be a pheonix.
yours, kristy
yours, kristy
Friday, January 20, 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Japan and their propensity for having everything clean
a little note about my winter break:
omg so much fun. I think i have the traveling bug. I know no one reads long posts so i'll try to keep the overview short. And i'll post pics later. Japan is a lot of fun, I love the culture and how clean everything is, and its so foreign and yet at the same time familiar. I realized I don't know enough japanese to converse, or even understand much. A lot of the talking is confidence though, its amazing how much more confident I was about going up to strangers and asking for directions after a couple days there. And at one point I even said something complex, along the lines of, among okonomiyaki restaurants, which one is the most delicious. I was so proud of myself, I had rehearsed it in my head multiple times before approaching the lady. I managed to get the entire line out without stumbling, and she seemed to understand what I said. I say seemed, because I had NO idea what she said back to me. All I understood was at the end she said 'sorry' so i assumed she didnt know and said thanks and left. That pretty much sums up my conversational skills. The girls in Japan maybe arent exceptionally beautiful, but they really know how to dress and pay a lot of attention to their appearance. So pretty much every girl between the ages of 8 and 28 was "ridiculously goodlooking". Tried to do some shopping, but a simple skirt there costs on average 6,000 Yen, which is about 600 US. insane. in the membrane. so after we figured that out, our days consisted of eating, walking until we were hungry, and eating again, over and over. with some sightseeing in between all that walking. I swear our only focus was to work up an appetite so we could try something new to eat. Whats ironic is that japan is such a clean city, but there are NO trashcans. not one. go figure. I dont know what these japanese locals do with their trash, my guess is theyre all secretly walking around with bulging pockets full of candy wrappers and cigarette butts. and these designer bags all the girls carry? just a convinient LV take with you trashcan to hold that half drunk soda. And on this note, Hong Kong was DIRTY. old pavement, old buildings, and trash everywhere. Ironically, hongkong contained a lot of conviniently placed trashcans about every 2 blocks. I love being from that culture. :-)
I could on average see above everyones head in japan, a strange feeling for me. Even worse for my dad, who's 6 foot, so white he glows, and bald. Basically his head was a flashing white beacon that stuck out above a sea of black. never had any trouble locating him. ok this is already too long, and i havent even gone over hongkong. maybe next update, whenever that is.
yours, kristy
omg so much fun. I think i have the traveling bug. I know no one reads long posts so i'll try to keep the overview short. And i'll post pics later. Japan is a lot of fun, I love the culture and how clean everything is, and its so foreign and yet at the same time familiar. I realized I don't know enough japanese to converse, or even understand much. A lot of the talking is confidence though, its amazing how much more confident I was about going up to strangers and asking for directions after a couple days there. And at one point I even said something complex, along the lines of, among okonomiyaki restaurants, which one is the most delicious. I was so proud of myself, I had rehearsed it in my head multiple times before approaching the lady. I managed to get the entire line out without stumbling, and she seemed to understand what I said. I say seemed, because I had NO idea what she said back to me. All I understood was at the end she said 'sorry' so i assumed she didnt know and said thanks and left. That pretty much sums up my conversational skills. The girls in Japan maybe arent exceptionally beautiful, but they really know how to dress and pay a lot of attention to their appearance. So pretty much every girl between the ages of 8 and 28 was "ridiculously goodlooking". Tried to do some shopping, but a simple skirt there costs on average 6,000 Yen, which is about 600 US. insane. in the membrane. so after we figured that out, our days consisted of eating, walking until we were hungry, and eating again, over and over. with some sightseeing in between all that walking. I swear our only focus was to work up an appetite so we could try something new to eat. Whats ironic is that japan is such a clean city, but there are NO trashcans. not one. go figure. I dont know what these japanese locals do with their trash, my guess is theyre all secretly walking around with bulging pockets full of candy wrappers and cigarette butts. and these designer bags all the girls carry? just a convinient LV take with you trashcan to hold that half drunk soda. And on this note, Hong Kong was DIRTY. old pavement, old buildings, and trash everywhere. Ironically, hongkong contained a lot of conviniently placed trashcans about every 2 blocks. I love being from that culture. :-)
I could on average see above everyones head in japan, a strange feeling for me. Even worse for my dad, who's 6 foot, so white he glows, and bald. Basically his head was a flashing white beacon that stuck out above a sea of black. never had any trouble locating him. ok this is already too long, and i havent even gone over hongkong. maybe next update, whenever that is.
yours, kristy
Thursday, December 15, 2005
all alone in the apartment
Yesterday was my last final, and I thought my night was gonna be kinda lame as most of my friends had already gone home, but I ended up having a great time. After MCAT class, I came back to really loud Blink 182 and shout from my roommate Kirstin "I made you a margarita!" And I knew then that my plan to stay in and watch a movie was not gonna happen. We had drinks and played loud club music, and decided we needed more people, so I called my friends Robert and Chun Mei, and told them to come over. Well, we thought they were gonna come right over, but 2 hours later, it was midnight, and they still hadn't left. Kirstin had a flight at 10 and I promised to drive her so we had to be up at 730, but I didnt want the night to end. So Robert and Chun Mei came to pick me up and we went back to their apartment, and ended up singing karaoke with fuzzy navels and a few of their other friends. Did this until about 2, then broke off to go play a game of spades. By the time I got home it was 330, didnt sleep till four, and got up to drive to burbank at 745. I had a really good time, and I need to hang out with these guys more often. I'm so glad I met them! :-)
It made me realize something. If I were still in a relationship I wouldnt really have the freedom to stay out late and drink and hang out with people I just met. Or go to dinner alone with a guy friend and worry about reassuring my boyfriend that it didnt mean anything. Or maybe I would have the freedom to, but I wouldnt want to, or I wouldnt have met them. I sacrificed so much of everything for my boyfriend, I would save up my freetime to spend with him and feel no need to meet new people, because being with him was perfect, I felt complete and whole when I was with him. And while that was amazing, and I do miss that, I also am really enjoying the spontaneity and fun of my single life. And I'm sure at some point I'll be in another relationship, so I should definetly take advantage of these times now. I've realized that I don't need love to be happy, and though I've been struggling with a desire to fix things back to how they used to be, I've accepted that I can't go back, and though its not technically my decision, this is what I want for now too...after all, before these past 8 months, I had spent the last 3 years in a relationship. And if we're being honest, its only been 2 months that I've been completely single.
our pretty nasty smoothies: banana, ice, milk, icecream, berries, hot cocoa powder, and the small amount of vodka we had left
It made me realize something. If I were still in a relationship I wouldnt really have the freedom to stay out late and drink and hang out with people I just met. Or go to dinner alone with a guy friend and worry about reassuring my boyfriend that it didnt mean anything. Or maybe I would have the freedom to, but I wouldnt want to, or I wouldnt have met them. I sacrificed so much of everything for my boyfriend, I would save up my freetime to spend with him and feel no need to meet new people, because being with him was perfect, I felt complete and whole when I was with him. And while that was amazing, and I do miss that, I also am really enjoying the spontaneity and fun of my single life. And I'm sure at some point I'll be in another relationship, so I should definetly take advantage of these times now. I've realized that I don't need love to be happy, and though I've been struggling with a desire to fix things back to how they used to be, I've accepted that I can't go back, and though its not technically my decision, this is what I want for now too...after all, before these past 8 months, I had spent the last 3 years in a relationship. And if we're being honest, its only been 2 months that I've been completely single.
our pretty nasty smoothies: banana, ice, milk, icecream, berries, hot cocoa powder, and the small amount of vodka we had left
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
wish list
no presents for me this year cuz of the big trip, but if i get the money these are things id buy myself
fleece pants
white usc hat
bronzer
video ipod
fleece pants
white usc hat
bronzer
video ipod
Dinner at C&O's
Went last saturday to C&O's Trattoria. Amazing food, and such a good deal! 10 bucks will feed you for 4 days, not kidding. but the best part are the garlic rolls. They just keep coming, every five minutes, out of the kitchen and piled onto your plate. And one last hurrah for me, chantie, and elisia before we head home for break.
elisia and I with the famous garlic rolls at C&O's last saturday
elisia and I with the famous garlic rolls at C&O's last saturday
The end of my fall Junior year
I'm actually having a lot of fun trying to figure out the Html coding for this blog and tweaking it. What a great way to procrastinate. Though I really should be studying, as my genetics final is tomorrow, and I didn't do that well on my physics one yesterday. I know most people would probably be happy with my score, but I could have should have done better, had I actually went to class the last month of the semester. Guess I just thought I could take the shortcuts and still pull it off. To tell you the truth, I'm burned out. I no longer have that inspiration, that drive. And I'm hoping that this winter break, and my trip to Japan and Hong Kong, will find me able to gain control back over my life, to do the things I know I need to do, to have the time to do the things I want to do, and the strength to overcome the complacency that has taken over me lately. I feel that the last seven or eight months have just been completely insane, I've been mentally all over the place, and my stability and support in many ways has either disintegrated or been replaced with new, more fragile beams. And I can point to the exact day all this began. But that's a story for another day, for now, I will attempt to learn the genetics of cancer, development, population, evolution, and decipher a paper on a study done to identify genes in a receptor tyrosine kinase pathway that produces an eye cell in fruit flies. Sound complicated? Believe me, it is. Wish me luck, and I will see you soon.
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