ruminations

there are some disadvantages to being a girl, for sure. i wish that i didnt have to put myself and the people i care about through those ridiculous couple days. i should just shut myself off from the world on those days. at least i know that it only gets better with time. i dont even know what to say. there are parts of myself that i want to change, but when its something i feel i have less control over, i dont even know where to begin. on another note, its hard to explain what being hapa really means. but its nice to be able to share that with someone